All I Ever Wanted

by Oh So

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released February 22, 2011

jj williams, bruce stocking

all songs by jj williams
except 5 by jj williams & bruce stocking
additional programming on 11 & 12 by marshall camden
8 samples Twin Peaks Season 1 Episode 3
13 samples "Holy Ghost" by In Tenebris from the album "From Blood and Water"

album layout and design by marshall camden
photography by eliza stocking/this too shall pass

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Oh So Charlottesville, Virginia

Oh So represents a musical exploration of the human experience. The members of Oh So desire neither fame or fortune, and as a result nothing is compromised; everything is offered to exactly as it was experienced. The ultimate goal is a sense of communion, for the boundary between listener and performer to be blurred, so that together, the idea of self is lost… or found… ... more

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Track Name: Never
My message seems to cloud as it reveals
And I can’t express with words the way this feels
How my head and hands and heart are mystified
and the way your movement leaves me petrified

Never’s not the word when you let go
It’s never been your way to tell me no
Can you tell i never know just what to do?
I’ll never have it easy; not with you

I feel the breaking point is drawing near
My intent now to simply disappear
But my hands and lips and tongue remain adept
A life ruled by obsession I accept

Never’s not the word when you let go
It’s never been your way to tell me no
Can you tell i never know just what to do?
I’ll never have it easy; not with you

Can you tell I never know just what to do?
Track Name: Lust
A quiet morning rain
A whisper on the wind again
To bring the hope for something real
I find the more I change
The more everything stays the same
Now ask yourself, how would you feel?

Within the endless nights of walking
Silence was my way of talking
For the lack of sleep defines my lust

The greatest fear inside
A secret taste of the divine
I seek to find my life depraved
And in the absolute
There is a longing here for truth
But I will not ask to be saved

Within the endless nights of walking
Silence was my way of talking
Words would just betray my reply
For the lack of sleep defines my
Body strong but mind unsound
I love the way that we fall down
Whispers fading into sighs
For the lack of sleep defines my lust

And so I say
That I remain
Still unafraid
I can maintain
And walk away
For loss or gain
To seize the day
To trust in pain

Can you see me reaching out?
Despite the years I had to wait
A single kiss to cure your doubt
A touch to hold you to your fate
Track Name: All I Ever Wanted
Born, it seems, already facing yesterday
Taught by life to always greet the world afraid
No one ever told me that the fight would last so long
Just to understand that love would always turn out wrong

And the path I’ve chosen is the one from which you fly
My greatest mistake was never learning to deny
Everything that I have felt and all that I could be
All I ever wanted was you to believe in me

Hope is lost and bleeding in the aftermath
Moments die beneath the gaze I feel you cast
Pray to end these days, though everything is left undone
It was always you that I was really running from

And the path I’ve chosen is the one from which you fly
My greatest mistake was never learning to deny
Everything that I have felt and all that I could be
All I ever wanted was you to believe in me

And the winds of change have never felt so strong before
Blowing in my heart, they seem to calm the rising storm
Filled with expectations and intentions as you are
To believe you, I must leave you
Track Name: Only Human
I have lived for years, by choice, entombed
The world outside so different from this room
Hallways shifting, all the faces change
Intentions never seem to stay the same

Everyone has eyes, nobody sees
You’re the only one that looks at me
On my knees
I surrender my self helplessly
I’m in chains with no wish to be free

Take my hand and lead me thru the rain
Only human, I am still afraid
Though I give myself and feel no shame
Only human, I can still feel pain

I awake and find myself renewed
Never felt such joy to be consumed
And your thirst will never drain my cup
I exist only to fill you up

And my beating heart will melt the frost
You are here and I’m no longer lost
Can’t you see
I will give you every part of me
I’m in chains with no wish to be free

Take my hand and lead me thru the rain
Only human, I am still afraid
Though I give myself and feel no shame
Only human, I can still feel pain

Now I walk the longest miles untamed
I will never cease to feel amazed
Track Name: Temptation Floor
I want to know when this will change,
When will we cross the line from harmless words and can’t return?
I wonder if you find it strange
Or like me are you driven, moving onward, no concern?

Take me, take me, don’t say no
And leave me lying on the floor
My eyes will follow as you go
Your legs move fast, your legs move so slow
Do you find it frightening, how much your ways excite me?
Take me, take me don’t say no
Your legs move fast, your legs move oh so slow

The tears trace lines across my face
Upon my lips I wish that I could always keep this taste
And still, a feeling I can’t place
As we perspire, we expire, ever interlaced

Take me, take me, don’t say no
And leave me lying on the floor
My eyes will follow as you go
Your legs move fast, your legs move so slow
And do you still adore me when I become this horny?
Take me, take me don’t say no
Your legs move fast, your legs move oh so slow

Take me, take me, don’t say no
And leave me lying on the floor
My eyes will follow as you go
Your legs move fast, your legs move so slow
So please don’t spare my life if you must say goodbye
Take me, take me don’t say no
Your legs move fast, your legs move oh so slow
Track Name: When I Was Blue
Hearts fall forward
To the feet of those that don’t believe
You ask me
Moving onward, and still I know

Something in my mind
Seems to recognize these lines
It reminds me of a time when I was blue
Within the seeds you sew
The many things you want to show
I wish you could know all of this is for you

Questions of faith
Declarations you refuse to hear
Think of me
The morning ever after, softly

I am the answer
You are the words I’ve left unsaid
In a whisper
I give myself to you

Something in my mind
Seems to recognize these lines
It reminds me of a time when I was blue
Within the seeds you sew
The many things you want to show
And the world is yours to give the message to
I wish you could know all of this is for you
Track Name: Define
From the start I told myself that I could change
And I would learn to smile again
A fact that we cannot explain
Things look obscured at such short range

And you would laugh one hundred times
And I would never make you cry
You would not lie awake at night
My angry heart would not define

It takes so much to look away
Still I can see your eyes turn gray
All things must ultimately fade
And I will do it all again

If it will take away the shame
Know I have always been this way
And all will burn inside my flame
I am the only one to blame

You die inside, the stars don’t shine
And I will always make you cry
And you will lie awake at night
The sorrow in my heart defines
So walk away, don’t come near me
For I can only make you bleed
And nothing in my soul redeems
Don’t waste your time on building dreams
Track Name: Don't You Want To Know?
Don’t you want to know
Though your face belies the fear you’re feeling
Don’t you want to know
We can all see thru the lies you’re dealing
Don’t you want to know
That your world exists on my conditions
Don’t you want to know
That I’m smiling while you burn your bridges

I thought you would know
That I’ve grown beyond the bitter discourse
I thought you would know
This is all for me, I feel no remorse
I thought you would know
That my faith and will are self sustaining
I thought you would know
Patience and restraint are slowly waning

And then you say
Everything’s fine
Yeah, it’s alright
I focus too intently on the night
And if I seek, I’m sure to find
That it was all inside my mind

Don’t you want to know?
Stories all get old and interest’s fading
Don’t you want to know?
The veneer has cracked and mold’s invading
I thought you should know
I thought it only polite to mention
I thought you should know
Just in case you weren’t paying attention
Track Name: Torment
Miles to go before the night expends
Every feeling I cannot defend
Tempered by the light that still creeps in
From where the cracks are showing
Lost in ways I cannot comprehend
(and wonders do contend)

And as the days grow colder
I cannot help falling for her
Rain will wash away all reason
Gladly I will disappear

I’ve been
Wandering through the sands of
Time without her hands to
Guide me to the answer
Driven,
I embrace the intent
For I find each moment
Spent apart is torment

Miles across this table to your face
Further still to find a soft embrace
Words are strong but cannot bring you in
To keep the cracks from spreading
Lost, and yet in losing there is grace

She never leaves me sober
I cannot help falling for her
Tracing lines that cling like velvet
To her form, I disappear

I’ve been
Wandering through the sands of
Time without her hands to
Guide me to the answer
Driven,
I embrace the intent
For I find each moment
Spent apart is torment
Track Name: This Mistake (Bury Me In Snow)
promises that bind
broken in between the lines
looking in my eyes
i don’t what you hope to find

for my heart is cold as ice
“bury me in snow” you cry

i’ve slipped out of time
i don’t even know myself
affection is your crime
i believe in nothing else

speaking clear, so full of life
every reason not to try
slips away along the tide
“sand is all i have” you cry

sometimes its too easy
just to let someone inside
and believe that you can hear me,
that this hope is justified
there is truth in what i’m saying
though you may not know it now
this mistake me make together
we will let each other down

passion tears away
lies that we have lived in vain
every step you take
serves to steal my breath again

all becoming clear at last
“are these words for me?” you ask
in the silence, answers lie
we should not have said goodbye
resting softly on the ice
how your body will entice
frozen, I cannot reply
“bury me in snow,” you cry
Track Name: Love Is But A Dream
Hold me when the lights go out
And run your fingers thru my hair
For too long I have lived without
This feeling is beyond compare

I’ve already fallen for you
To me love is but a dream
And if only for a night
We will discover what it means

Sway beneath the falling sky
I promise I won’t let you down
Let candle light caress your eyes
Let whispers be the only sound

Can we keep the morning from our minds?

Welcoming the coming storm
We celebrate what we can’t see
And when I am in your arms
In trust I know I can believe
I’ve already fallen for you
To me love is but a dream
And if only for a night
We will discover what it means

When each new feeling is taken for a sign
The boundaries between us grow harder to define
Perception of daylight seems to fall behind
Can we keep the morning from our minds?
Track Name: Desire
The evening passes, in it’s wake remains a plight I can’t evade
A never ending masquerade
Each visage upon my face, a fallen form is soon replaced
Still longing for the one I can’t embrace

There is something so intoxicating in the way your body moves
The give and the take quells the urge to escape

My fingers are tingling, my body on fire
So ill prepared to feel this desire
I wander through the city in a daze
It seems so strange, to feel this way
And still I say, that each passing day
Draws me further, and I’ll never be the same
As I run to you unafraid

The desperation in my voice conveys the longing that I feel
A sentiment I can’t conceal
Teach me with the thunder, rain; I’ll gladly bleed if in your name
I’ll taste the fire, surely die by flame

There is something almost holy in the way the moonlight frames your shape
So fearless and sure, angelic and pure

My fingers are tingling, my body on fire
So ill prepared to feel this desire
I wander through the city in a daze
It seems so strange, to feel this way
And still I say, that each passing day
Draws me further, and I’ll never be the same
As I run to you unafraid